I Always Wanted To

Anne Huffington didn't start diving or flying until she was in her forties. When I was 40 I miscarried my third baby and was aware that motherhood would not be in my future.  I asked myself what I could do now that I could not have done as a mother, and the answer was “learn to scuba dive”.  That set me on a course of diving all over the world.  At a Professional Women’s Network event, I found myself in a hot tub with the Jungian Therapist and Author Jean Sinoda Bolin, who asked me what my passion was.  I described diving to her – going deep into gathering dark water off the Monterey Coast kelp forests until an underwater world opened up to delight my eyes.  She said, “I would guess you are also in deep grief therapy because what is manifesting on the exterior is often what we are pursuing on the interior.  As it turned out, I was going through therapy 3x/week – called doing “black hole” work on buried trauma. I thought about those concepts and decided that perhaps we could shape our interiors by what we did