Roots Of Awakening | Rediscovering You

I pushed my dad’s body into the fire.This is something I never imagined I would do.When I was faced with the opportunity to make this transition for my father I knew I had to do it.I knew I could walk away and have someone else do it but I knew I didn’t want to live my life that way.I knew the person I wanted to be and that person is the one who doesn’t shy away from the hard things. I know what it’s like to feel completely overwhelmed and afraid. I’ve been the person that never had a tolerance for hard things.I mean, who looks forward to dealing with negative things, right?! When it was clear my father was passing away I vowed to stay with him through it all. I didn’t leave his side. For both he and I, it's what I had to do. I held him while he took his last breath, I laid with him for one last snuggle after he was gone, and as a final act of love I pushed his body into the crematory. I took care of him until there was no more body to take care of. While it was the hardest time in my entire life, I’m so than

Is anxiety robbing you of the ability to enjoy life? Like really enjoy it? It did for me. Every time I felt a slight pang of happiness- I would reprimand myself and think of how its too scary to be happy. Happiness left me vulnerable. And I was ready to anything to not feel vulnerable.  I longed for happiness- but when I found it- I was left wanting for something a little different. I wanted JOY.  Join me as I recount my path to finding joy- and how I feel joy differs from happiness. Article I spoke about in episode: Maya Henry article: How To Overcome Your Fear of Happiness Please feel free to reach out:Roots of Awakening Collective Facebook Page Instagram Keep in the loop

Did you read the title of this episode in the tune of Salt-N-Pepa’s “Let’s Talk About Sex”? If not, go back and sing it that way- it’s so much better that way. Okay, on to the real talk...I get it, talking about death makes you uncomfortable. I used to worry that talking about death was going to make it come and get me, kind of like the boogie man. But, it’s the one thing that is guaranteed to touch all of us- so shouldn’t we be having conversations about this? I think so. I’m going to start with the basics in this episode, like what books helped me, why you should talk about your own death, and why you need to talk about your loved ones deaths too! That's the basics right? This is the first of many conversations I want to have on this topic, because its vital we start talking about this now! It will actually help reduce anxiety and even keep families together (I explain in the episode what I mean by that). So, take 20 minutes today to just start your journey into the death positive field- its SO worth it!

You asked to hear more specifically about panic and anxiety- so I am delivering! In this episode I will take you through moment by moment of my very first panic attack as well as what the few months following it looked like. Hear about what was going through my head during the attack, why the word “unreality” gave me a moment of validation, and what I spent tens of thousands of dollars on to get better after my attack. Please feel free to reach out:Roots of Awakening Collective Facebook Page Instagram Keep in the loop

How in tune are you with the moon? Whether you are conscious of it or not, you consistently act a certain way during each phase of the moon. Maybe you’re more introverted with the new moon or more maybe you’re a little more  anxious with the full moon. In this episode we will discuss the most common behaviors during the new and full moons and how you can empower yourself by finding out exactly how you react to the moon’s phases. Links to some of the things I mentioned in this podcast: Book: Aunt Flo: Who she is, why she visits, and what others have to say about her We’moon calendar iPeriod app   Please feel free to reach out: Facebook Instagram Keep in the loop

Chakras! This is one of my favorite subjects in the world. In this episode I’ve set it up more like a class, in order to teach you about the incredible impacts that your chakras have on your entire mind, body, and soul. There is so much information in this little episode, so I made sure to make my notes available to you. That way you don’t have to worry about taking notes yourself, you can feel free to sit back and just absorb it all.   To get the notes just go to: https://RootsofAwakening.com/chakras   Please feel free to reach out: Facebook Instagram Keep in the loop

We hear a lot about what depression and anxiety are like for those that are suffering from it, but we often don’t think about those who are closest to them. Many don’t realize that they are struggling too.   “Coming home, I wouldn’t know what mom I would get.”   I am honored to have my oldest daughter on the show to talk about what life was like growing up with a mom who was mentally ill much of the time. She tells it like it was- and doesn’t sugarcoat it either, instead she shared what was going on in her mind, how our household differed from those of her friends, and her advice to those that are in similar situations.We also touched on the fact that she has a similar “make-up” as mine: shes an empath and people pleaser. So how did that change things for her?   “When you’re down, I’m down.”   This is a talk that has been so revealing and healing for me, I hope that you find a connection with it as well. Please feel free to reach out: Facebook Instagram Keep in the loop

Have you ever asked the Universe for something that you are totally embarrassed to admit out loud to anyone? Yeah, me too. Yet, here I am telling you a secret that has filled me with so much guilt over the years.   Asking for what you need and want for in life is really hard for some of us- to the point that we would rather suffer in silence than say, ‘Hey, I really could use a nap right now.’   But, why? Why do we pick burnout over communication? Why do we pick being totally resentful of our partner rather than communication? Why does rest equal not-enoughness or weakness?   Sorry, I don’t have the answers for you, but I do know what you’re going through, because I am one of those people who would beg for sickness instead of asking for rest. Until I wore myself down so low that I had to ask for what I needed, because if I didn’t, I’m pretty sure I wouldn’t be here anymore.   Join me while I reveal what I used to ask the Universe for and how I got myself out of that thought pattern once and for all. Please fe

From a very early age I knew that I interacted with the world differently than those around me. I seemed to feel what people were feeling and I didn't know how to handle it. It then became my mission to make everyone I met happy, because I didn’t like it when I felt negative energy around me. When I reached puberty, I learned that drugs could help numb some of the heightened sensations I felt. By the time I was 14 I was weaning myself off speed, which only made my need to people please become amplified. Often the only way I knew how to do this was with my body. I gave away the only thing I had to offer.   By 18 I was pregnant- and my world changed forever. The next 15 years were plagued with deep pockets of depression sprinkled with soaring highs. Then in 2015 I reached the bottom of my mental illness journey- I suffered my first panic attack. It's taken me 3 years to find the surface and come up for air.   This is my story. My hope in sharing it is you will understand why I need to do this podcast now, why